When I die

by Merrit Malloy
This was read at her Memorial Service

When I die
Give what's left of me away
To children
And old men that wait to die.

And if you need to cry,
Cry for your brother
Walking the street beside you
And when you need me,
Put your arms
Around anyone
And give to them
What you need to give to me.

I want to leave you something,
Something better
Than words
Or sounds.

Look for me
In the people I've known
Or loved,
And if you cannot give me away,
At least let me live in your eyes
And not on your mind.

You can love me most
By letting
Hands touch hands
By letting
Bodies touch bodies
And by letting go
Of children
That need to be free.

Love doesn't die,
People do.
So, when all that's left of me
Is love,
Give me away!
Give what's left of me away
To children
And old men that wait to die.

And if you need to cry,
Cry for your brother
Walking the street beside you
And when you need me,
Put your arms
Around anyone
And give to them
What you need to give to me.

I want to leave you something,
Something better
Than words
Or sounds.

Look for me
In the people I've known
Or loved,
And if you cannot give me away,
At least let me live in your eyes
And not on your mind.

You can love me most
By letting
Hands touch hands
By letting
Bodies touch bodies
And by letting go
Of children
That need to be free.

Love doesn't die,
So, when all that's left of me
Is love,
Give me away!

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When Tomorrow Starts Without Me

When tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,

An angel came and called my name and took me by the hand.

The angel said my place was ready, in Heaven far above,

and I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.

When I walked through Heaven's Gates, I felt so much at home,

for God looked down, smiled and told me "Welcome Home".

So, when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart,

For every time you think of me, I'm right here in your heart.

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When You Come to the Edge
When you come to the edge
of all you know and are about
to step off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing one of two
things will happen;
There will be something
solid to stand on or
you will be taught to fly.

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The Wonder Of You

by Elvis

Lyrics

When no-one else can understand me

When everything I do is wrong

You give me hope and consolation

You give me strength to carry on

And you're always there to lend a hand

In everything I do

That's the wonder

The wonder of you

And when you smile the world is brighter

You touch my hand and I'm a king

Your kiss to me is worth a fortune

Your love for me is everything

I guess I'll never know the reason why

You love me as you do

That's the wonder

The wonder of you

I guess I'll never know the reason why

You love me as you do

That's the wonder

The wonder of you

Choose Play to listen to his song


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A Distant Light

by her old boyfriend John

How can I describe my Love for you?
How can I show you
The Joy you bring to my heart?
What can I say to tell you
How you complete me?
How can I give you my affection?
How can I thank God for you?

As I lie here in bed
With you on your side
As I caress your body
And gaze into your eyes

I look to see the loveliness
And the beauty
Of the shadows
Upon your body
Cast by a distant light

I wonder,
What did I do for God
That He gave me someone
So wonderful
And beautiful as you

As I look upon your breast
And admire its loveliness
Its beauty is only matched
By the shadow it casts
Upon your chest

As I caress this breast
I feel all the tenderness it holds
As I look upon its shadow
I see all the strengths
Of the woman I love

As I watch my hand
Slide down and over your ribs
I feel your soft smooth skin
Undulating under my fingers

I look upon the beauty of your hip
As it rises above your waist
And casts its own shadow
Over your ribs
Which only adds design
To the beauty
God has set before me
I want to caress your legs
All the way to your toes
But alas -
I would have to move the arm
That cradles your head

So again I look to your face
And see a love
I've grown to know

So relaxed are you
So beautiful are you
So trusting and content are you
I feel a dream I have fulfilled
For you

As I hold you and caress you
All I can do
Is try and think
Of ways to please you

I lean forward
And kiss your lips so gently
And you kiss back
With a tenderness
I have never known
Except from you

While I kiss
I continue to caress
My hand again slides
Gently over your breast

Over your ribs and hip
And then finding
The soft curly hairs
I stroke them
And you respond
With your tongue touching mine

For this I know gives
You pleasure elsewhere
I am ready when you are
My dear
For I am content
Beyond all measure

By the look in your eyes
I know that you love me
For who I am
Are happy with me
As I am
I feel strong
I feel confident
Yes, I feel like a man!

You and you alone
Have done this for me
Because I know
That I can satisfy you
I know
That I can please you
I know
Because you have told me so
You have shown me so

I know this beautiful woman
Loves Me
Cares for Me
Trusts Me
And most of all
Allows me to
LOVE HER

So therefore
I must Say
Happy Birthday
My precious Love

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Where Beauty Abounds

So where do I begin,
How do I say,
What brought us here,
And where do we go from here?

How do I tell you,
How do I show you,
What my heart does,
And has for all these years?

For when I think of you,
Just as much as talking to you,
My heart beats faster,
As I find myself alive,
Just as it did when I first met you!

As I looked your way,
And saw you standing there,
I almost couldn’t talk!
But talk I must,
For that is why I was there.

What do you do when beauty abounds?
How do you cope,
When you see such loveliness?

But talk I must,
For that is why I was there.
Focus, yes focus,
On the job at hand,
Put the beauty behind!
Don’t stare at the loveliness!
Or I won’t be able to talk.

But talk I must,
For that is why I was there.
So I talk and teach,
But then I must leave.
And I question,
When will I see such
Beauty and loveliness again?

But leave I must,
For I have taught,
As I must,
And I have shown,
As I should.
How will I cope,
Without this vision again?

Time passes,
And then the phone
Does ring,
With the voice of beauty
In my ear!
Asking questions
I delight to hear.

As a friendship grows
With beauty abounds,
And to my dismay,
My beauty abounds
Comes to work for me!

And then one day,
This vision of loveliness,
Tells me of a mistake
She has made.
But not just words,
Of apology, oh no,
Not this beauty abounds.
She says she has to pay,
For this mistake of hers,
And will not allow,
For me to pay.

So what must I do,
For this woman whose beauty abounds?
Whose vision of loveliness
Is now matched
WIth her sense of fairness.
So what must I do,
But to love her,
And keep it secret,
For otherwise she may leave.

And secret I keep it,
From the woman whose beauty abounds.
Until one day,
With her hand in mine,
She hangs on for an instant,
As I let go.
And then my heart races,
As I ponder the reason,
She hung on for an instant,
This woman whose beauty abounds!

Could it be, no not me,
Does her heart race too?
No not for me,
For this is a woman whose beauty abounds!

But what’s to lose,
If I should ask,
Would she quit and leave me be,
Or would her fairness,
Allow me to ask?
Or should I just not ask,
And simply let it be?
Oh no, I must know,
How she feels,
This woman whose beauty abounds.

I cannot ask,
For I am afraid,
So I must tell,
This woman whose beauty abounds,
That I love her!

But not just because her beauty abounds,
But because she has taken,
What’s most precious to me.
For now she owns me,
Both heart and soul,
And has for so many years now!

So how do I cope,
And how do I say,
That I am hers forever and ever,
This woman whose beauty abounds!
Are mere words enough?

As I tell my beauty abounds,
That I Love her!
But what then do I do,
When silence abounds?

I fear a mistake I made,
For now my love,
A secret no longer.
Have I lost this woman,
Whose beauty abounds?

Oh silence, how do I cope,
As time goes by,
Ever so slowly,
Hours to days,
And days to weeks.

And then says she,
"Time for lunch,
"Please let’s walk,
"So we can talk."

My heart in my throat,
What can she say,
What will she do,
How can I cope?

When leave she must,
For my love is not
For her to take.
For we are married,
But not to each other.
So I agree to walk and talk.

And silence no longer,
For this woman
Whose beauty abounds,
Tells me of a man
Whose beauty abounds.
And in his hands,
For many a year,
Holds most precious,
Her heart and soul.

So how do I cope?
And then she says,
This man is me!

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Memories

I remember when I first saw you,

And how I thought you were so beautiful.

I remember how easily you learned,

And how I easily found work for you with others.

I remember when you came to work for me,

And how wonderful you were with everyone.

I remember my wife telling me how I must love you,

Because you took such good care of me.

I remember falling in love with you,

And telling you how much, two years later.

I remember weeks later that you told me you loved me too,

And how for many years were afraid it would show.

I remember how you captured my heart when I asked,

"If we got marred, what color dress would you wear?"

I remember your beautiful reply,

"I didn't think you would want me to wear one."

I remember our love growing for the next twenty years,

And how we became one.

I remember when you were diagnosed with cancer,

And told the doctor "People who don't smoke get lung cancer too."

I remember telling you "I love you, see you tomorrow",

And how hopeful I was as I left the hospital.

I remember when you brother called and how hard I cried,

When he said "At 7:45 this morning, our beautiful Carla died."

But I remember, and always will,

Because I love you still, and always will.



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